i believe that i am somewhat dysfunctional. i came to this realization several months after my first semester in college. i began noticing that i would have these random neurotic episodes that ended in either tears, strong feelings of anger, or the occasional bout of uncontrollable laughter (i feel that this is the most dangerous of the three). fortunately, i have yet to reach my neurotic peak( i haven't done any physical harm), although i have come close on several occasions. the good news is that these neurotic episodes appear to be stress related; however, the bad news is that 80% of the time, i am under stress.
i've tried to repress my neurotic tendancies. the plan was to redirect my emotions. actually, i only redirected my attention. i put myself and my issues aside and focused on things that weren't related to me or my issues. my strategy momentarily distracted my attentions but intensified my episodes. it was during these episodes that i came close to my neurotic peak.
my new plan is to deal with my issues directly. this has proven to be difficult because i don't really want to deal with my issues. i suspect that i may be dysfuncitonal, and i'm afraid that dealing with my issues directly will only prove my theory. however, if dealing with my issues instead of running away will reduce stress and ultimately end my neurotic episodes, then i'm willing to acknowledge my dysfunctionality (is that a word?). wish me luck!!