i spent the past few days in starkville, ms. originally, the plan was for me to arrive saturday and leave monday morning, but my vacation was extended by two days due to car trouble. apparently, i did some serious damage to either my head or my head gasket. i'm not exactly sure where or what it is, but whatever it is, it's definitely expensive.
anyway, the extra two days gave me a chance to spend more time with my 'sister' and other friends. i've known my 'sister' for almost three years, and she's become one of my best friends. she's one of the few people that i would do anything for, mainly because she'd do anything for me. she's also one of the best people to travel and go out with (she's super-crunk at times). i miss her all the time. for the past year, i've been so busy dwelling in my own issues and taking care of my son, that i haven't really been able to sit down and talk to her like i used to. especially when i was pregnant. actually, i was pretty distant. it wasn't that i had an issue with her; i just felt bad.
the only people i really felt i could talk to were those who had children or were pregnant. we had a common interest. i felt like everyone else couldn't relate or understand how i felt. truth is, i was really jealous of everyone else, because they were still able to do the things that i was no longer able to do. i was always either too sick or too tired. plus, my attitude wasn't all that great. what makes her so special is the fact that when i told her how i was feeling, she understood.
so if she ever reads this: sweetie i am SO SORRY, but thank you for loving me anyway!! I love You Girl!!